2007 has been the most amazing year. I sat here all morning thinking about that. 2006 was a year that I completely lost track of who I was, and who I wanted to be. Then the second 2007 struck I was back, or at least I was progressing towards becoming more of myself again.

I feel more myself now than ever. In August I will be moving to the Bay Area, and really pursuing my art. Now more than ever I am determined, now more than ever I am inspired!
I have a new LCA+ from my dear Richard and I'm really excited to use it. His mother also bought me the Diana, I have lomo's everywhere!! I have to use them. I have to.

Music this year was a huge thing to me.
Paper Tiger by Beck
TV on the Radio
Bat For Lashes
Beirut
Calvin Harris
John Vanderslice
Rogue Wave
Jason Schwartzman


This year I made so many new friends too,
Becky, Ciara, Olivia. Technically I made them in 06, but I really became close to them in 07.
Late night bike rides and trips to Phoenix with Becky. California adventuring with Ciara and Olivia. Not to mention the many days just spent doing nothing and being strange. They're no drama, they're real people, they're really weird, they're really my best friends.

I went a lot of places this year, Sedona, San Diego, New York City, New Jersey, San Fransisco, Los Angeles, Fossil Creek. I jumped off of roofs into pools, and rocks into cold waters. I was more brave than I thought I could be this year, saying goodbye to bad friends and bad memories. Forgiving for things I had always said I would draw the line at. I am more forgiving than I was, I am more understanding than I was.

And I am certainly more happy than I was.

This Time Tomorrow

Travis Jansen's piece "Generally Speaking," is up at the Urban Gallery at Urban Outfitters in Tempe. Go check it out. It's the first instillation in the Urban Gallery, which will promote up and coming Arizona artist work. It's a really amazing opportunity as a company to really promote the talent we have in our state. If any of you guys want to talk about getting your work in the gallery let me know!

In other news last night Patrick Swayze Jr. passed away. I am pretty devastated, and extremely lucky to have Richard around. He was our little guy and we are really going to miss him, he was the best cat ever.

Anyways,
I woke up today and my entire face was swollen from crying myself to sleep. I was an absolute wreck last night. I didn't feel much better this morning either, but we went to extreme pita and saw a lady stealing clothes out of a donation box and that made me laugh. We collected some items that were Swayze's and put them into a drawer so that we could have a funeral, or something for him. We need closure. Then we went to The Darjeeling Limited, which was nice. It was also nice to have a break from work and etc. and just hang out with Richard in the middle of the week. As sad as I am, I could not ask for a better boyfriend.

Well, at least we still have Ms. Whiskers, she's not terribly friendly, but she's ours.

We Suck Young Blood

good morning herr horst

First of all:
I am tired.
I am true of heart!

And also:
You are tired.
You are true of heart!





Yesterday I turned 20. I didn't feel terribly different at all. Then I talked to my father and he made me realize that the first 5 months were the worst I've ever endured in my life. I had to grow up and act like an adult more in those 5 months than in my then 19 years of existence. But I suppose that should be expected after a party when I plunged 2 floors to a rocky floor and somehow didn't break my neck. So I made it! I made it to 20! And from about... February to this very day, I've been the happiest I've ever been in my entire life. I've not only been happy, but I've been myself. I'm not the evil cynical back stabbing person I felt like with my old friends. I am not heartless. I am full of heart. I love my friends. My friends who I do not have to spend every second of my day with or automatically assume they are up to no good. My friends who I am only friends with by default of other friends that are friends with them because they are holding some horrifying secret about them. I'm not a flake. I have a tendency to be a bit spacey sometimes, but I mean well. My close friends know this.
Most of all I am very fortunate. To work where I do with the people I do. To have the boyfriend I do, who supports me so much and allows me to be strange and have the awkward quirks that I have. To have my friends that make me laugh so hard all of the time. Who are the most strange and beautiful people I've ever met in my entire life. To have the family that stands by me through the worst times.

This year I think I will work on not holding grudges. Thats something I'm fairly terrible at. If you've wronged me in the past, at this point in time I can assure you I still somewhere inside of me am still angry about it, it's just how I am. I dwell. I am unforgiving. I am working on it..

rabbit fur coat

Two of Everything

I have a small problem with not being able to let go of concepts.
The concept of living in a place of my own, with things of my own, instead of a condo thats not mine.
With a dog thats not mine, and everything thats just so pink.
I'm not a very pink person.

I keep making plans, and lists and plans and lists.

i guess it's because i'm a virgo

say hello to the angels

midnight carwash and winkleman part II

winkleman, az

to me, some of the most amazing places are the ones that have been completely forgotten about by those who once loved them.

the begining of summer

Family